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Sad Chinese NEW YEAR 2005
What a new year to start off..ya..after so long..I've decided to blog..for wat reason?loneliness and sadness perhaps.don't really call it a reunion dinner.didn't even enjoy it..and now that im back home alone.what fucking things can i say?why must I always accept things that ain't what I want?I don't even actually to have someone like a stranger entering our lives...do you get what I mean?one after another..what fucking reason u kept giving?perhaps my tolerance level has declined to the minimal.But I just can't accept the fact that you actually did this to me..I thought I'm so occupied by my work and trainings that i've no time to be upset with anything..but can I just take a break during this so called chinese new year?Can I have a mind of my own..when will you learn to understand me..I don't wish to lose anyone anymore..not anyone in this family anymore..do u know..but u never read my mind..never even try to understand me..I've drifted far too much away from anyone in this family..no one!
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2005
First thing first,Happy new year!
Still missing you..
It'd been century since my last decent blog..haha..too lazy too blog and I'd been blogging rubbish in my friend's blog tat's y lazy to blog here.Anyway she's finally safely back..which is such a relief for me..and she complained time passes so fast when people here are worrying like hell can..yupz,but I seem to have the habit of watching channel news asia now..cos of her,I'd been catching up with the news to keep myself up to date..So sad for those who are there..Ain't it meant to be a joke?Supposedly to be worried about the bombing by terrorists and now instead they met natural disaster.Is this world gonna come to an end?That's scary!People outta,treasure every single moment with your loved ones cos' you'll never know what comes next.
Missing you..
A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
Love hurtz
Nothing much I wanna say actually..But changes made in my blog are all meant for you and only you.I finally understand what you want and what is it the whole picture is all about.I might not be sober,but that gave me the courage to prompt and clarify.It gave me the courage to say what I want.But I'm sober enough to remember everything you say.No doubt it hurts.But I'll pray for your happiness.I wanna be selfish.I wanna do things that spare no thought for others but it's impossible.That's me.I've been evil.I've broken else one heart.But I realise it's better to be the one being hurt than to hurt.The answer "NO" has stayed in me..and that's the reason to leave.I guess I shall take the cruel way out.I shall be back the bad one.I might say this tonnes of times,but I've been trying to find back the same old me.The one that does not tear,share,and all she cares about is herself.I'm hestitating to be back that bad egg.But why should I be nice to others?This is a farkin world that treats bad eggs better than the nice ones.Perhaps I should.This shall again,be the last time I tear over such things.No more pls.
Three dead after car and truck collide
11.12.04 8.30am
No more blogging for her as. . .
She pleads.She begs.She prays.Please,everyone,stop invading to her world if you merely wanna hurt her.She has nothing left so stop invading into her world and smash all her hopes.Something,someone has proven her,she doesn't belong to the love world.But she never regret entering letting her into her world even it's only a very short period of time.She will just treat it as days of paradise which can only be dreamt on from now on.She's tired of hearing to be hurt now than later.She's tired of all the explanations cos it's only a repetition.She no longer wanna share her foes with anyone.Cos' she wanna stop everyone from entering her world.A world that has be drunkened by love but suffocated her till she can't breathe.She has once again have a taste of the sour feeling,trying to control her emotion and tears when she's on the train.She swallowed her tears which is on the verge of her eyes.But finally it can't help but roll down her cheek.She no longer cares about how others see her cos' all she knows is that it's a ending to this and not even a happy ending.You guys don't bother about asking what has happened cos' she has decided to get outta of this complicated world.Trying to live on her own.
Fabulous night..
Yesterday went to the driving centre with mum and I've signed up for the school for the driving lesson.Kinda bored over there..was hoping for time to pass faster so tat I can see my germsy soon..She supposedly to end work at 530 but last min got more request so she has to stay till 7.so met up with her after that to accompany her home while I stayed at her void deck with her starlet and we'd a good run around her block.Haha..Soon we headed down to town around 8plus.Met up with en,ger and eve.Went mac for dinn as me and germsy haven't had our dinner.Then after that..straight away we headed down to Zouk..like at 10??haha..bit early thou..so we slacked around till the "curtain" opens..and we bought a jug of vodka w ribena at one for one deal.But it's so dilute..me and en finished one jug while the rest finished another jug.Music at zouk is trance..but we went down to the dance floor for awhile and went over to phuture.It was like so damn crowded..cant even squeeze our way thru.But we managed to do so thou.Get to the very end of dance floor but en didn't join us.The guys there are so sick..I guess I spent most of my time trying to push them away than to dance.And this big fat butt malay gal was standing behind me..and she almost suffocated me..her butt was like making me lost my balance and yet she's too big to be pushed away..The scary thing of the night..my lil princess fainted..it's too crowded that she lacks of oxygen and she just blackout..me and ger was like trying to drag her out..but there seems to be no path out.I was so worried..She seems so pale and unconscious..But fortunately we met this lady she helped us 'escaped out of the crowd'.we went to the inside table of Phuture..Get germsy some ice and water and finally she's awake..phew...what a relief!That lady with her fren helped us to get thru' by the VIP door(aka back door)..And we realised they're crooked too..haha..and claimed us to be their juniors..ha!But that lady's friend named Jo was kinda high but friendly and cute..haha..She joined us in zouk and have a great time.She bought us a jug of drink..so nice of her..She just wanted us to enjoy..=)Was kinda worried at first cos' she's kinda close to germsy but germsy gave her assurance and I felt secured after that.So sweet to have germsy by my side thru'out the night.Oh my,and syl..she and this gal..whoever she is..was frenching like nobody's business..haha..they've turned on people around her..But they got 'lectured' by Jo too.That night was just so happening..Around 2+,ger's dad came to fetch us home.Germsy and en came over to my place.It's just so sweet to hug germsy to slp thru'out the night.Love her so much!It's so nice to open my eyes and see her first thing first in the early morning.And my poor gal has to go work at 8.*xin tong*
Laughing exercise..
When my eyes are opened,no one is at home..and I know that's the start of my maid day..Mopped the whole house..Followed by packing of my room...I'm so proud to say,I've cleared every single paper in my room,and I've wiped every corner of my room..it's so clean and shiny now..and there goes half my day.But it means it's nearer to meeting my sweetie germsy!!Went to meet her at yishun at 715..Then went to town..yeah..town at this time..haha..for dinner and she wanna get sth..We cracked our brains for dinner end up we went to buy stuffs first..Then we walked to far east eventually for dinner..Had our slow dinner..heez..w pathetic fork and spoon..Then rushed around searching for "thank you" card for her supervisor..Manage to get it at TAKE..Off we headed home..Took the train to marina bay..And this two silly had a great fun on the train..had an hour of laughing exercise and poking session and scaring off lil kid on the train..we act as if the whole train is ours..haha..we never stop laughing till we reached her block...with VOID DECK!!haha..the best thing of the day...the warmest and sweetest hug for da day..she gave me such a warm hug..it just melts my heart..ain't my lil princess sweet?*thumb up* She rawks to da max!!
Enjoyable Day..
Went over to Xiong's place to have my lunch..The usual class peeps were there too..Then went to meet my sweetie germsy at 630 to get the things she'd prepared for me...The items are:2bottles of honey water,one bottle of alovera gel,one pack of lozenges..She's so sweet yeah?!After that went back to Xiong's place for dinner..Gosh,machim my house..haha!
Wat the fuck is my life heading to..
Ok off I go...Start of the day..met up with da gals...off we headed to Siloso beach.wtf...one mistake:forget to bring jersey.ok,never mind,da gals all changed into the free tee..then there we go and we started our match.
My new plan..
Ok...Here I am..to announce to the whole bloody world...I WANNA TRAIN UP MY STAMINA..all I want now is training..and be who I wanna be..I'm gonna pack myself with touch rugby training and bball training and nothing else.When the blacks are back..I'm gonna train my contact rugby skills too..I just wanna do all I have been longing during my school days..Yup yup,perhaps love life is just too complicated for me..so I shall just step aside till the right one has approached..I shan't think of anything that's gonna do with love now..heez..cos it hurts..guess I should just stay out of it till someone has found her right mind of it.Yupz..so as for now..I wanna be the best player...I'll train hard for it..I wanna get some achievement for this coming comp..I believe I can do it..yeahz..
Journey to the cemetry..
Just came back from class chalet.It was fun.Simply FUN.For sure I'll miss my fun-loving classmates.Namely that few lar..Our class gonna splits..everyone has their plan..and zhang peng and rui ming will be gone..back in their own countries..
Game over..
@ 9/2/2005 01:58:10 PM *
New Year eve's afternoon was just simply rotting at home.At 6pm,went to meet up with en,as usu,who else can I meet.Yupz,then went town to search for a price then we headed to PS to meet up with carol and kelly.Had our dinner at Long John and me and en rushed down to meet irene,cand,gina.Then,we headed to our 'lao di fang celebration venue' - my aunt's fren's pub.Ha..got free drinks,free food and free fun..all the things are free..which makes me feel kinda bad..cos my aunt and that uncle are paying for it.But their usu phrase - as long as you guys are happy,just enjoy.Yupz,indeed we'd great fun.Carl and kel came to meet us and brought two frenz over,feli and dunno who.Jaime joined us before the countdown too.Our countdown is just so joyous.Then until 2+,we went over mox,to look for her.Oh,for your info,irene and en are drunk can..haha..ops!I was high no deny but sober.And my aunt's frenz are drunk too..haha..seem like a chaos..not exactly..heez..Anyway met up with her.Happy new year.Me,en and jaime ended up at raffles place.We hang around there hoping to help jaime catches a cab but all are on call.En and I started flooding the plants with puke.This is the first and the worst time I puked and so no 'yi tai' in the public can..same to en I guess..Haha..Hide at a corner,sat down,stoned,lied on the floor for awhile,thinking about sweet memories,then everything back to normal.We caught a train at 630 I guessed.We sent jaime to serangoon mrt and we headed home.Me and en are like to sleepyhead on the train and decided to take a cab from admiralty.So yupz yupz..that's all...
@ 1/1/2005 16:58:10 PM *
Last but not least,
@ 31/12/2004 14:58:20 PM *
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl it’s only you and me
@ 29/12/2004 14:58:20 PM *
@ 17/12/2004 16:12:20 PM *
Three people, a New Zealand truck driver and two Singaporean tourists, are dead after a car and a truck collided at Mangaweka, south of Taihape in the central North Island, last night.
All three had been identified but names would not be released until relatives had been told, Sergeant Andrew Kowalczyk from police central communications in Wellington told NZPA.
It appeared the tourists’ car may have crossed the centre line, possibly in loose gravel from recent roadworks.
The impact demolished the front of the car and destroyed the truck’s steering, sending it careering through a protective barrier and down an 80 to 90 metre bank.
All three people died instantly.
Mr Kowalczyk said the car was heading south when it collided with the northbound truck shortly after 8pm.
Initial attempts to reach the truck driver were hampered by the terrain and rescuers did not know whether he was dead or alive until a high rope fire rescue team lowered one member down.
"He wasn’t able to rescue the driver but he was able to confirm he had died in the accident.
"At the same time four volunteer firemen from the Taihape-Mangaweka fire brigade rafted down the Rangitikei River at night."
They then walked the raft up a stream to help in the recovery of the driver’s body.
"Given the fact that the driver was trapped inside the cab, which was crushed, further assistance was needed so a high rope rescue team from the Wanganui Fire Service attended.
"They lowered four personnel down to the crash site with cutting equipment. It took a further two hours to extract the driver from the cab," Sergeant Kowalczyk said.
State Highway 1 was closed for most of the night to heavy traffic although light cars were diverted around a small country road.
Police had high praise for the trucks and bus passengers who waited for most of the night until the road opened.
Mr Kowalcyzk said local businesses at Mangaweka also provided food and shelter.
The Singaporean High Commission was called early today in an effort to contact relatives of the two dead tourists.
Police were also appealing for witnesses to the crash and any drivers who drove through the accident scene before the car and truck collided.
- NZPA
These two singaporeans are actually on honeymoon but the most unfortunate thing happened.The guy is NYJC Pe teacher while the lady is Peirce Sec Sch Pe teacher.Everything is destined.So treasure everyone around you as you'll never know what will happen next.May peace be with them forever.
@ 13/12/2004 14:59:20 PM *
Lesson learnt for the day: How to differentiate ngee ann city and take!! ;p
First game, YJC vs NYJC (5-0).
Second game, YJC vs RJC (1-3)
Third game, YJC vs SP (3-0)
Fourth game, YJC vs TJC (3-1)
Knockout Round, YJC vs JJC (best players) (3-2)
Quarter Final, YJC vs SMU (2-4)
That's when we put a stop to YJC last touch competition.Anyway cal came down to find me...but gone in amidst cos of....Anyway,today just ain't my day.Was so disappointed with my own performance for the very last match against SMU.I'm TOTALLY off form..is it because of some reasons?or what?Not sure.But the point is,I've screwed up this game.A very big SORRY TO EVERYONE.I was pissed at myself...and disappointed myself.Everyone thought what happen that I attitude them.I walked off alone immediately my last match.Was all alone after that.Sat there all by myself,tears just rolled.Everything came to my mind.I guess I just suck.Went off alone and went down for LingYun bball trg.Just wanna keep my mind occupied thou my body was about to collapse.But who give a damn?It no longer matters anymore.
Went out with en,cal,andy,den,cal and na(cal's fren).Went down to town for shopping.Then after dinner,decided to go back wdl to 'drink'.Together with cal,en and Andy,we went back to En's house to get the car.But it's so unpredictable..We wanna drive to LIM CHU KANG to drink and celebrate cal's bdae but the car ain't there.Look at en,she's darn pissed at the uncle who borrowed the car.So we rotted at her hse and by 1+? we got the car and there starts our journey to the cemetry.Drove in the middle of the night to the cemetry,how exciting can it be right?Cal bought two bottles of 'drink' too.Then we finally manage to find our way there.But thanks to the help of the 'kyao tall' when Andy prompted such a qns: Where is the cemetry? Haha..all the workers were lookin at us.Everyone got kinda tensed up when we reached the chinese cemetry and they started drinking alcohol to boost up their courage.Haha..We 'visited' all the different religions.(Chinese,Hindu,Muslim,Christian. If we miss out any other religions,tell us..we'll be back for it.Hahaz..) It's about 3+ am and it started raining when we're in the mid of Hindu cemetry.En quickly drove us out to the main road.Then we stopped and covered the car..cos we took out the canvas.Ha..kinda drenched..Cold!!then we headed back home..Cal looks high thou she claimed she isn't.After sending Andy home,En drove me and cal home..Cal came over to my place to stay..Reached home about 430am.Slept at 5+..thru'out the morning didn't get to sleep much..cos that silly cal kept disturbing me..end up..throw her outta my hse at 9+(no lar,she gotta go..) and I went back to sleep till 2+ pm.haha..En woke up at 3+..isnt that worse?hahaz..I seem to lead night life ever since my A's is over.Always sleep around dawn? :)